i wish i had selective memory.

i hate it when the past comes back to haunt me. ok. i dont hate it.. im afraid of it.. afraid of its repercussions..

there's a reason why i chose to leave u behind.. i was trying to move on..
coz i think u have..
well, i haven't.

i feel like im on a treadmill. first, walking, then, running away.. but no matter how hard i try and how fast i run, i end up in the same place, ie. still not over u.

i tried distractions too. and i thought i was succeeding.. til u came back to haunt.

i might miss u.. and i so wanna dial ur number (which i thought i had erased from my memory.. but somehow, i got a thing for numbers..) but i refrain from doing so..

why?


1) coz u moved on.. yeah.. i know i told u to..
2) coz wat if we start becoming friends again and then this whole cycle repeats its goddamn self again. when is it going to end and is it ever going to end?
3) because i don't believe in "love". its corny. but at the same time, i dont know wat this feeling is..


please let me forget u. i'm at ur mercy.