lets talk abt the future.

well, not exactly THE future, more like YOUR future.

have u seen urs?

have u ever thought abt it?

well, lately, i've been thinking a lot abt it. and i mean A LOT. i've basically mapped out how i want to achieve my goals. and i just wanted to list them down here coz i wanna see how stupid it sounds when written down. not exactly stupid stupid la.. more like idealistically over-simplified stupid? still with me?

all these thoughts started off with my brother, announcing tt he is comfirm gonna get married on 08.08.08. Apparently, he has to confirm now, coz tt date is damn hot la n a lot of ppl want to get married on tt date. some have already booked the mak andams and wat nots loh. i din know ppl can plan weddings until 2 years. wah. 2 yrs i can get a level cert leh.

ok la. so some ppl might argue tt getting married is more important than getting an a level cert.

wtv lo.

the thing is, it kinda dawned on me tt im not getting any younger. the clock ain't ticking backwards honey. im gonna turn 20 soon and within the next ten years, a lot is gonna change. a lot has got to change. i am going to leave this life tt im living now for a new one. or a slightly modified one, depending on how u choose to see it.

in 2 yrs time im going to graduate (if all goes well). convocation will be in july (if all goes well). my bro will get married in august (if all goes well). One day before national day (they're planning a red n white theme). then hopefully, by then, i'd have secured a job (if the school gives lobangs).

after my bro gets married, the dynamics of the family is definitely going to change. my bro will buy his own house n move out (apparently he's planning for pasir ris, which is at the opposite end of singapore, mind u). my parents wont want to and wont have any purpose of staying here anymore coz i wud have graduated and will be expected to look after myself. but then again. maybe my parents will stay in singapore til 2010 coz tts when my dad will turn 55. anw, i'll be 24 by then and wud have worked for 2 yrs.

im thinking of taking over my dad's damn lousy car (proton wira) so i dont have to spend money on buying a car. coz ah.. i have to repay back my study loan frm my dad's cpf ma.. n i tink i'm gonna feel the pinch lor. so, to safe money, i will do wat i always do n take my dad's things(the concept does not only apply to stationery u know).

regarding where im gonna stay.. well, i tink rite, if my family dont want to sell this flat rite, we shud rent it to a couple of international students, girls preferably, then if my parents decide to move to malaysia i can stay in the house with the students.

actuali im very lucky la coz my father had the foresight to see tt he needed a place where it was possible to sustain a living and take care of themselves on a small fortune. he has always had the thought of not burdening his children n tt is y he bought the property in msia.. to take care of themselves. he doesnt want to burden us. i mean, c'mon la, tt kind of heart n soul deserves tears. i love tt man, man.

*sigh*

so.. ya.. i wud definitely need to adjust to a new climate. of course then there's the new extended family.. eihh. come to tink of it. cant imagine ah. a bit weird.

anyhoo, back to my future. next topic: love life.

i tink i wanna get married around 28, 29 la. mostly because i wanna have my first child before 30. healthy ma. coz i heard women shud giv birth to ur first child before 30. so i guess by 25, 26 liddat must find someone stable rite. must find







hopefully by then my career will be ok alreadi la. who knows by then i get sick of corporate life, lies n politicking n decide to do sthg else.. like become an aerobics teacher or sthg. ok ok, out of point. or full time housewive. haha. rOite. not gonna happen. unless i marry a rich man n become tai tai la. which has always been a dream of mine by the way.

haha. so tts abt it la- the lover, the dreamer and me. i know, sounds like a plan, bt of course with fate n stuff.. u cant reali determine la. sometimes, some things happen (kuch kuch hota hai). now a bit stressed la, coz when i look around, a lot of ppl are in seriously relationships. but its ok i guess, i shall pride myself in being the odd one out.

so i guess rite now, i cannot do much except

1. get a driving license
2. do things tt will contribute to my resume
3. date ppl unseriously. (i tink some call it serial dating. i am NOT being choosy)

yup, so tts some of wat i've been thinking abt. i hope i din sound too stupid and/or idealistic. just thoughts floating around tt i needed to pen down.

good night, and good luck.








it all sound honky dory. it aint a bed of roses n i'm actuali still nt over u.