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Wednesday, January 26


so i finally gt my ORGAN DONATION CARD. yey!! its this light blue card with my name, ic no and the registration number in front. and at the back, there's a statement of the organs i pledged. and.. hahahahahahhahahahha.. let me laugh first, at the back oso, in fine print, at the bottom, it writes,

"In the event of death, pls contact 6 222 3322".

ya, i'll remember to do that..

my dad got his BARONG TAGALOG today. he lks so distinguished in it. another reason y i should go to uni.. so that he can put it on during my convocation photo shoot..

im having guy issues.

i think the guys i cant get along with are the good guys. by that, i mean the non-horny guys. they are also the guys im attracted to. which is probably y i cant get along with them. i think.. to these guys, i'm the jerk. dont ask me y.. i just cant get along with them.. they're like.. i feel they're too good for me.. but i wanna end up with someone good. but i always knock heads with them.. i dont know why.. because they're better than me and i cant stand that. god. im difficult. i should be culled.

then the majority of my guy friends.. and just about any guy all across the world.. horny jerks. previously, when ppl say that the average guy thinks about sex every 7 seconds, i thought it was a bit of a stretch.. now, i tink its an understated fact.

i mean really, they think about sex, a lot. and im just learning about that although ive been around guys a lot. so have i been walking on the earth with my eyes closed and my ears shut all along?

Lelaki- 9 akal, 1 nafsu.
Perempuan- 9 nafsu, 1 akal.

(Translation: Men- 9 minds, 1 desire)
Women- 9 desires, 1 mind)


ok. enough talk about guys and sex. so not worth it sometimes.

check this out, especially about the woman talking about cardboards. i love it.
http://www.simonhoegsberg.com/


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Thursday, January 20


today was my off day.

woke up, went to watch The Aviator (DAMN GOOD).

looked for nice colourful shoes under $20. NONE of the shops carried a size bigger than 41 (CURSES). i regret not buying the $10 ones at the ESPRIT sale last yr.

was actually feelin good.

til i got a sucky phonecall..

ALL GUYS ARE JERKS.

ALL.

ok. except my dad.

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I miss staring at kamal in the bus. haha.

ok ok. and kamal.



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Thursday, January 13


hi!

ok. work is tiring but quite fun lo. so this wk only can wk short hours becoz the permanent staff havent take leave yet. Later nearer to chi nu yr then hav to work longer hours lo. My "colleagues" (chebah!) are very nice lo.. very willing to teach. so.. its cool. But then, the responsibilities are pretty heavy lo. Its very unlike a temp job. more like permant. like very very permant. haha. But then again, my gd friend works in the nearby shop, selling ice cream, so when i feel a bit shitty i'll go for toilet break but talk to her instead. heh. pun not intended.

so i tink my contract ends on 13 feb. I going to sign up for another temp job at pioneer rd. but that one is one wk onli ah. or slightly longer. starts fm 21st feb.

my current pay is $5/hr. its super little lor, considering the immense responsibilities i have to undertake. the 1 wk job is $6/hr. n i dun think its as stressful. so.. not bad lo.

i tink after this job ah, i wont be able to speak proper english. haha. my "colleagues" are all aunties ah. haha. and 2 minahs. and 2 makciks. haha. i mean, how bad an environment can it get? =) but then ah, i really respect this aunties and makciks ah because although they are *cough old cough* already, they are still willing to learn lor. so although their english is bery the broken one ah, i salute them man.

today i start at 4pm and end at 9 pm. zzzzz. but tmr off! gt tuition at night tho. im charging this sec 4 girl $100 for private tuition. Emaths and combined science. She's in express ah, so O levels this yr. Is it too much? Should i reduce it to $90?


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Sunday, January 9


see lah. who ask u to doubt me?

the zulican virus is real. dun believe? go and read sunday times today. 2nd and 3rd page (i tink).

anw, i FINALLY got a temp job at westmall. i shant disclose the exact location coz i dont want u all to go there and kacau me. its only until after chinese nu yr lah. then hopefully, i will get the teaching job. god. my malay is blardee rusty lah.

hey, u know wat? my hua yi bu chuo lor. had a conversation with this ah yi while waiting for the lift yesterday. she just came back from walking her dog. it was a white maltese. so cute!! so i said,

Moi : so cute! hen ke ai.
Ah yi : henke ai? *smile* ni ke yi jiang hua yi ah?
Moi : aiya. i tian tian er yi.
Ah yi : hen hao ah. Then she asked sthg like "U live this block ah?" in mandarin.
Moi : Ya. 5 th floor. (ok.. i dunno how to say 5th floor)
Moi : Ni leh?
Ah yi : *shows me 7 fingers*
Moi : *looks at the mutt n smiles* wo you liang ke mao.
Ah yi : Chen de ah? Wo ye she you. Wo you i ke mao.

Then more neighbours came and the lift door opened. So tt was the end of the conversation.

I learnt a new dialect phrase today courtesy of my dad. "Bakchew ta sai ah". its someting like "Che meh" rite?



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Thursday, January 6


Hi!

Ok. So the public managed to get together an amount of more than $10 million for the tsunami victims. and that's just monetary aid. The clothes, the food, the chinooks, the bulldozers, the medical supplies and the volunteers would add up to much more. Therefore, i've concluded tt singaporeans are big hearted.

Right?

Does this gesture prove that we are willing to give a part of ourselves for the betterment of others?

U know what, i'm not so sure.

we ARE an affluent society. and most of us dont have much problems parting with a small amount of our money or with our old clothes or with $10 for an NTUC hamper. No problem. But are we willing to part with a part of ourselves? And I mean that in a literal fashion.

Still don't get it? Read: ORGAN DONATION.

This is more so for my muslim friends lah. As u all know, the MKAC has been running an organ donation campaign especially after they changed the syariah. Now, instead of needing 2 walis, we just need 2 saksis (any 2 muslim men) to sign the form. So all this MKAC ppl and volunteers have been running around trying to get ppl to pledge their organs. So far, the response has been quite somber but somehow, i dont blame the public. I mean, we can have ppl from PERGAS, MENDAKI and MUIS sending us mail and even calling us at our residence asking for donation. "Spend money to get money" seems to be their motto. But MKAC isn't doing that(and i dont understand WHY). Instead, they get their volunteers (mostly makciks) to distribute the forms by hand. wow. soooooo efficient. NOT.

Yes, i understand that ppl at the MKAC are pouring sweat, blood and tears for the campaign. And i can see that the frail response is very depressing. But dont blame it on the public's ignorance. Like DUH. There must be a reason behind this unawareness. Perhaps its in the lack of aggression in MKAC's approach. Perhaps there is little emphasis on the urgency or the immeasurable importance of the legacy of life. Perhaps the advertisements where we see ppl crying because they are hurting from kidney failure do not tug at our heartstrings anymore.

Or perhaps the ppl who really want to pledge their organs cannot and don't know how to get to a form because they didnt happen to bump into one of the distributor makciks.

A'in to the rescue!
http://www.moh.gov.sg/corp/systems/organ/hota/forms.do

ps: if u dont have a printer or acrobat reader, tell me. maybe i can print for u. ;)


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Tuesday, January 4


so sue me for thinking that there are no cute guys in our local unis. *smacks self in the forehead* well, technically, a BAD experience shaped that perception. so, its not my fault. =)

yes ppl. i discovered tt there are SOME cute guys in the local unis. ok. maybe not some. a FEW. so all hopes not lost ay?

anw, for those of u who think im bimbotic coz i go for looks, you're right. and i've got some advice for these group of ppl. stop being hypocritical. like it or not, everyone goes for looks. maybe not ppl who are good looking by default (if u can say tt), but good looking at least in your eyes.

some girls think that guys with thick eyebrows are hot, while some much prefer guys with thin (ala jap manga characters) eyebrows. Some like guys with big eyes and long lashes while some like guys with small or slit eyes. some like big tall guys, some like not-so-tall lanky guys. some like fair guys, some like tanned guys and some like dark guys. some think that guys with dimples are cute, while some (like *cough me cough*) think dimples look weird on guys. some girls want guys who are more good looking than them, while some don't.

my aunt asked me what my ideal guy was like. i said "i dunno."

well, honestly, i really dont. i told her that "i think i'll know when i see him".

but there's one thing for sure. i like tall guys. however, i couldnt exactly tell my aunt that coz my uncle's kinda not-so-tall. =)

anw, im still sick, and still jobless. and i havent bathe yet.

oh yah. i dont like guys who are skinnier than me or eat less than me. i think that would just be WEIRD. really. i dont mind dating a fat guy, but i think its weird to date a skinny guy. i need someone who can help me finish my food. haha.

(not that i eat very little lor. i eat small portions, but a lot of times a day. so, it really adds up to A LOT.)

but then again, who knows right? someday, somewhere, somehow, i might just fall for a skinny someone.


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Sunday, January 2


im bored.

and home alone.

and feverish.

i took 4 panadols

and half a bottle of cough syrup.

and hey,

im not dead yet.

haha.

cant write tonight.


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