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Sunday, October 30


this is one reason why u shudn waste money on trunk calls.

kl: how come u're sick?
s'pore: dunno. i tink i ate too many m&ms tt day ah..

kl: u miss me rite.......
s'pore: yea.... rOite..

kl: no, seriously. u miss me tak?
s'pore: (pause) yea, i guess... sometimes.. i mean.. occassionally.. not much, really.

kl: well, u had ur chance with me..
s'pore: (speechless. pauses for like.. 14 secs)

kl: hee2.. oi.. wats wrong lah dear......
s'pore: shut up lah...... damn kl-ite.

sometimes ppl break ur heart without even knowing.


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Thursday, October 27


warning: advertorial contents

dear tutors & proj mates,

sorry for not coming to school yesterday. i was sick.

cold? flu? fever and congestion?

all of the above.

but ur report yesterday was brilliant! how did u do it?

lemsip.

yeah yeah.. full of shit i know.. who ask u to read my blog...

anw, shud reali try lemsip ah. it reali works!


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Tuesday, October 25




y do u build me up? buttercup baby...

oooh. m reminded of the nj mass dance.. laaaaaaaaame.. haha. but fun ah.

been trying to study lately, but reali, to no avail. well, no surprises there.. i just wasnt born to study. and tt, my friends, is a fact.

need proof? this is wat happened halfway thru attempting a stats problem...





dont ask........

oooh. and i got a lil distracted by a lil' sthg called "hari raya".




for a gazelliontrillion pseudo dollars, where is this place?


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Saturday, October 22


im in a festive mood. haha. very happy today *cheshire grin*


favourite kuih raya?
i like bayam goreng (tts fried spinach, believe it or not). but is soooooo difficult to find. only the old timers make it.

favourite raya food?
my mum's lontong with the works man!! thick ccoconut gravy, serunding, sambal sotong, paru goreng, hard boiled eggs.. and begedil.. an absolute must on the first day of raya!!!!!

favourite raya preparations?
baking kueh. baking kueh and more baking kueh.

favourite raya's eve activity?
stay at home n wait for the takbir after the azan.....

favourite raya activity?
umm.. checking out how hot my cousins have grown up to be... *cheeky grin*

which raya dish do you know how to prepare?
haha.... i can make drinks.. coffee, tea, milo dinosaur, syrup.... does tt count?

average number of kad raya received every year?
haha. none. but i do get cards on christmas, new year and valentine's day..

where is your kampung?
pontian, johor!!!! woooo! rox!!

what do u like most abt raya?
tt evryone comes together, young and old, distant or not.. n tts when i get to check out my hot relatives.. wooh!

whats the first thing that comes to your mind when people mention raya?
FOOOOD!!!!

where will you be this hari raya?
first day i'll b at home.. second day i'll be in hall b, nanyang auditorium, seat nu 744.

ok. happiness suddenly evaporated. and just as it does, panic leers its ugly face again.



For lagu raya downloads, http://www.jiwang.org/portal/modules/mylinks/visit.php?lid=462


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Friday, October 21


i know this sounds like a whole load of crap. but, since u guys are mostly frens, i expect u to bear with it.

lately, ive been noticing things abt ppl. things im not very comfortable with. these ppl are usuali the ones tt are distant frm me, not my close frens, coz if my close frens do sthg i dun like.. i'll qn y.. n most of the time, i realise it was a misperception on my part.

anw, im not judging. reali. im not.... mostly wat i dun agree with is reflected in the emails tt i gt, the blogs i read(not u, miss lalala) and in the forums im part of.

the bulk of it is insensitivity. or a lack in tact. this is especiali prominent among guys. seriously. u hav individuals who, if u meet on the streets, seem so diplomatic and tactful... yet, in emails and such, they take on an air of so-called "superiority", the "im better than u" approach.

in gp, we learnt abt balancing arguments.. to show tt u can see from the other side of the fence. but this idea of BALANCE is lacking in the stuff ive been reading. perhaps, these ppl werent particularly paying attention in gp class..

i dunno, but maybe the web provides a shield, or a bubble tt make ppl more comfortable, more confident of wat they want to say. but lets face it. if u dun hav the balls to say it upfront, then i hav no respect for u. (at least in this light)

its like there's a whole new breed of cowards out there. the ones tt need to speak out without speaking up. i hav a problem with this. coz im very frank. BUT, most of the time, i practise tact and i practise being sensitive. other times, im not thinking, u know.. words jus come out. these are the times where i hurt ppl.. with or without intention. and hurting ppl, my frens, is nt exactly a brilliant idea...

sigh. i digress.

im just sick of hypocrites.

i see the actions of ppl and i reflect them upon myself.. i ask.. m i like dat?

sometimes the answer is a resounding no.. bt its mostly yes..

in which case, i try hard to correct myself..

Hence, i decided to work on the following starting today.

1) LESS SWEARING/CURSING.. NEED TO DELETE THE WORD N*BEH, FCKLAH & *SSWIPE OFF MY VOCABULARY
2) TRY NT TO B A HYPOCRITE
3) BE SENSITIVE AND TACTFUL (MOST OF THE TIME)
4) BE SINCERELY DIPLOMATIC AND NT JUST TREAT IT AS AN ACT
5) CONCEAL THE TRUTH BUT NOT LIE (XCEPT WHEN I HAV TO LIE TO CONCEAL THE TRUTH)


ok ok...

i know tt when i talk, its very GRAND AMBITIONS type ah.. this is wat the malays say "bebual WORLD seh!!" bt tts just me. i just like putting down my thoughts into proper words. its like.. ur hard drive ya know.. u hav to delete some stuff away in order to free up some space. and then u download more songs and fill it up again.. =p


someone once told me tt i tend to exagerate coz i hav indian blood.
how true.


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Thursday, October 20


i refer to yant's recent post.. the one with the nerdy lab shots (geez. thk god i dont hav lab sessions)..

nah.. im nt gonna comment on her photos.... it'll jus make her more of a narcissist...

its her views on the melayus tt i want to extend.. the so-called "educated" melayus..

in her post, miss lalala asserted that "malays, the smarter they are, the more they dun wan to be into their culture. either they dun wan to or they r not exposed much to the malay world. perhaps that's y their smart cos they're not realli into being a malay "

ok. lets break her assertions down.. one by one.

1) Malays, the smarter they are, the more they dun wan to be into their culture.

By culture im assuming that miss lalala is referring more towards the arts.. or wat is known as "seni". This includes malay dance, dikir barat, silat, dondang sayang, berpuisi, bersajak etc..

Yes, i agree tt there seems to be a correlation between academic intellectuals and interest in seni(or in this case, lack thereof). Here, i'd like to offer a few explanations to support this point of view.

i) these so-called "intellects" might think tt seni is a waste of time and is for the mats and minahs of the community. IOW, they think they're too good for it.

ii) they have not exposed to seni from young.. more used to staring at books or playing chess for hours at length. as a result, they don't know how to appreciate seni.

iii) they're not used to speaking malay(bcoz of the startlingly minute number of mlys in jcs n unis). hence, even if they're interested, they figure that they wont be able to fit in with the seni crowd who they deem "very the melayu".

iv) CBB (Cant Be Botherd) Attitude.

v) certain associations with religion which i dont like to talk about coz it just gets me pissed and worked up. and also, i dun think im of enough knowledge and/or stature to air my point of view without getting slammed or slandered.


2) They r not exposed much to the malay world. Perhaps that's y their smart cos they're not realli into being a malay


pfft. where do i begin? hmmm.. lets just say that in my humble opinion, miss lalala wasnt reali thinking when she wrote this sentence.. For one, there's a huge grammatical error (hee hee) .. and two, its biased.

i think miss lalala was trying to establish that most "smart malays" were not brought up in the typical, or should i say, the more traditional malay family. What i mean by this is that most "smart malays" are raised in english speaking families or more liberal minded families OR families which just simply do not have the (i hate using this word) 'typical' melayu mentality. Less restriction translates to more freedom which when channeled correctly, may produce an individual with an open and thus, more receptive mind. So generally this is y they might become smarter.

But, i guess the point of contention in this statement is the phrase "not into being a malay".

for this, i have to ask.. wat does 'being a malay' constitute of?

Lets assume that 'being a malay' refers to being into malay related stuff like culture, language, etc.

By saying that ppl are smart because they're not into being a malay, then how do we explain cikgu ariff ahmad? dr yaacob ibrahim? mr maidin packer mohd?

these ppl are definitely into being a malay.. but can u dare say tt they are not smart?

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this.. dilution of culture issue seems to have been an age old debate.. and it seems to always be argued together with the westernization of the east.

is it a valid issue?

yes, very much so.

is mly culture reali suffering?

im afraid so..

is it onli applicable to us?

unfortunately no....

look around, better yet, ask around.. im sure u'll find some chinese friends who can tell u of chinese ppl who diss mandarin.. i used to know someone like tt.. it was very sad to see.. i'm also quite sure u can find indian friends who choose to forgo certain traditions.. for various reasons..

i do agree tt sometimes, certain traditions, superstitions and taboos should be forgone.. bcoz, like it or nt, it may hinder us from moving along in this fast paced digital age. but there also needs to be a balance.. and a point where we draw the line. we must learn to appreciate our customs, art and traditions. we must develop a passion for it.. bcoz no one else is going to....

or else, one day, all tts left of our culture will be history.




teringat akan dialog terakhir SAM: "ini kisah tentang manusia, yang kebetulannya bernama Melayu"

Takkan hilang melayu di dunia?




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Saturday, October 15


sorry sorry..

really really realy really busy..

not enough time to giv a proper update..

but anw, js wanted to tell u sthg..

if u lk at my sitemeter report, someone actually typed "dialating cervix" on msn search, and landed on my blog!!

HUARGH HUARGH HUARGH HUARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*rotflmao*


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Sunday, October 9


went for the ^ntums *iftar jus now..

fun ah. coz get to meet ppl.. socialise.. kinda..

by nw ive forgotten half the names of the ppl i just met.

!!!

god. useless ah ain.

anw, lookin forward to spending time with my dad tmr. *feels warm n fuzzy all over*

i love ramadhan. there's just sthg special abt it..



^ntums- NTU Muslim Society
*iftar- break fast together gether


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Saturday, October 8


turn up thy speaketh!

friends, romans, countrymen, lend me ur ears..

check this song out.. it's freaking CRAZZZYYYY!!




green day + oasis + travis + eminem?

wat the hell? haha.


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Thursday, October 6


Phew.. finally my marketing project presentation is over.. k. so now i have onli amazon.com case study (coming up in the next 2 weeks) n financial management proj (due end of semester). the rest is history baby.

i looove my marketing group sia. damn fun. we just have a certain chemistry. wooh wooh! here's our webbie tt we created for the presentation. .:organic ooh la la:. MACAM REAL sia.. haha. bt its all crap. to tell u the truth, only half of the food we served was organic. 100% my ass.. budden again.. this is wat my CEO calls "quality bullshitting".

ooohhhh ya...... hw can i forget to mention?

celebrated the beginning of ramadhan yesterday. wooh! bt ah.. sad lah.. bcoz 1st day aredi came home late. i reach home like 5 minutes after the azan.. the "ya rabb" song was alredi playing.. quite saded coz i dun get the chance to buka like a family like last time.. my bro is working 2nd shift this week.. 5pm to 1 am i tink.. so.. havent been seeing him around (awake, i mean).. hope next week the family can get together..

exams are like in 29 days.. so fast sia. like *blink* then eh! end of sem1. waah. then 2006 alredi. then later *blink blink* again.. 2007.. then *blink blink blink* graduate liao.. i cant believe im starting work right after i turn 21 in may 2007. so surreal.

this yr like no mood to celebrate hari raya.. mkting exam is on 4 Nov.. n tts the onli subject i wish to do well in.. coz i wanna specialize in mkting.. yeah.. my luck is just GREAT rite?

ah swell.. enuff crap.


Suddenly somtehing has happened to me
As I was having my cup of tea
Suddenly I was feeling depressed
I was utterly and totally stressed

Do you know you made me cry
Do you know you made me die

And the thing that gets to me
Is you'll never really see
And the thing that freaks me out
Is I'll always be in doubt

Animal Instinct
The cranberries


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Tuesday, October 4


i wasnt reali shocked after hearing bout the recent bali blast.

frankly, i didnt feel anything at all.

i was numbed.

and i tink everyone else was.. n will be.. for a long time to come.

i mean, ask urself..

were U shocked?

c'mon... honestly.. dig down inside..

i tink most of us will say no.

and the ppl who said yes... probably have been going around with their daily business with shut down senses.

my point is, there have been so many tragedies lately that no one cares anymore.

no one fears death anymore.

i generally dont fear death anymore.. well, as much..

i mean, wat's there to fear?

lately, it seems that u can die from anything..

sars, plane crashes, planes crashing into u, dengue, tsunami, earthquake, guns, hurricanes, bombs, mortars, bird flu, mad cow disease, volcano erruptions, pig flu.. need i say more?

we came into the new millenium with so much hope.. so much ambition...

it all seems like a divine prank. or is i, afterall, a divine intervention?

*shrugs* i guess its like asking whether the glass is half empty or half-full.. uh huh.. we know tt drill.. so cliche.

and then there's life..

u work hard, stress urself out, rush here rush there like headless chickens..

and for wat?

for all u know, all the material things u worked hard for today, may not matter tmr.

and when u're gone, wat can ppl say abt u?

tt u were successful with a big house a big car? a straight A student who scored 1600 in SATS? a sexy girl who was always in sync with the fashion scene?

is tt wat u reali want ppl to know u as?

*shrugs* i dunno abt u.. but i surely dun wan to be recognised for such superficial so-called accolades..

makes u think doesnt it?


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