*
*
*
Tuesday, January 31


congratulations.

to...

me.

for being able to function 18 months after the wreckage.

congratulations.

to..

you.

for having moved on.. only 16 months after that fateful day.

congratulations.

to..

them.

for being right- guessing it'll be over sooner or later.

congratulations.

to..

us.

for going 18 solid months.

under the radar.

1725.

now

2028.

it wouldve been. but i guess.. some things are never meant to be.

but im happy.

and im happy for you.. i guess.


Posted by theblackazure @ 10:09:00 PM
link this post |

Tuesday, January 24


oooh.

i feel so in demand all of a sudden.

i got a job. well, more like 3.

one's on wednesdays. teaching at a tuition centre from 530 to 930. 2 classes. pri 4 and pri 6. ENGLISH. haha. god is a joker.

2 private groups on saturday. one a group of 4 siblings. p2, p5, sec2, sec 4(n level). one a private tutee(a cuzz) sec 4(o level).

so effectively, i'll be teaching p2, p4, p5, p6, sec 2, se 4 n & o-level.

whoa.

paokahliao.

but i need the cash.

speaking of which....

TODAY IS MY DEARESESTTTTT MUM'S BIRTHDAY!!

happy birthday mum.. (no, she doesnt read my blog.)

my mum used to be so sexy.

she's fair right.. nice pinky complexion, no pimple type. and she used to have this KILLA body sia. and she'll be wearing this super super tight sarong kebayas and flaming red lipstick. and then she had those jackieO shades.

retro fabulous. tres chic.

i didn buy her anything coz im super super broke. shall buy a waffle machine when and if i get my pay next month. fyi, im not the cheap paraphenelias giver type.

in the meantime, im just making brownies.. i feel so cheap.

budden again, my mum knows im broke.. coz i keep complaining.

mum rocks lah. i cant begin tell u how much i appreciate her.


Posted by theblackazure @ 10:46:00 AM
link this post |

Sunday, January 22


waaaaaaaaaaaah.... i dun wanna go to school tmr...

im so shagged.. and im so sleepy.. and i havent even touched my tutorial yet.. wait. OMG! i havent even printed it out yet.... and my class is at 8.30 am tmr.. OH MANNN....

see lah. this is the effect of having too much of a good time.

*dush*

*smacks self with a geisha*

i cant believe that from the time school ended on friday.. (Abt 2.30pm) til this evening (Abt 8.00pm), all i did was go out.

WAT IS WRONG WITH ME??

anw, i cant skip the thing tmr coz there's a quiz.. so if i dont come it'll be very obvious.

wahlao.

*stabs self*

*mortified expression*

*bleeds*

*feigns death*

HOW?

jialat lah. the thing is taking so long to print. can sleep, eat, wake up, bathe.. still havent finish.

*dush*

(hmm.. wat else can i complain abt...)

OH YA.

my butt hurts sia. ok la. not really my butt lah. its the part just below the butt and just above the hamstring.. all thanks to dance lah. OMG... DIE lah. im so rusty already. my steps look so cartoon and worse of all, SO KAYU!!!! i cant even touch my toes now ah. not to mention the panting. YES! i pant even during the warm up! wat the....

mannn... this is no good.. really. how can one be a minah without the one important ingredient every minah needs-- staMINAH?!!

*shakes head in disgrace*

disgrace. wat an apt word to use in time like these. as opposed to grace? no? i trust the astute among u would understand..

(hmmm... wat else?)

OH YA.

do u know dat my cat snores? so irritating. sharing a bed with a snorer. sometimes when he starts snoring a bit too loudly, i cover both his nostrils with my fingertips. and then he wakes up gasping for air. and then he gives me an annoyed look.. and then he promptly falls asleep again.

damn dat lazy cat. wat a blissful life it leads.

which reminds me...

waaaaaaaaaaaah.... i dun wanna go to school tmr...

eh. but they're giving away free mcnuggets.

cheeeeeeeken.

ok. i shall go to school tmr.


Posted by theblackazure @ 11:40:00 PM
link this post |

Wednesday, January 18


weekday... busy.

weekend.. also busy..

how to update?????

ANYHOO,

this is a video of moi.

in school.

being busy.

http://h1.ripway.com/blackazure/1709.wmv


Posted by theblackazure @ 6:28:00 PM
link this post |

Saturday, January 14


today in communications class, we learnt tt sometimes, visual is more powerful than verbal.

i know that some of u might find it hard to understand me(and my psyche) coz im a tad strange and all.. so, instead of me trying to explain myself, i'll let u step into my shoes.

Hence, I am now gonna give u a virtual tour of



MY ROOM
(voice of god morgan freeman)




so... this is my bed...




seriously, this is wat my bed looks like on a day to day basis. lets take a closer look.




1: some gift my mom asked me to wrap
2: a sea lion soft toy
3: a cat, not a soft toy
4:books, notes, files etc.
5: school bag





ok. if uve been able to get pass the initial shock. CONGRATULATIONS! now we can move on to my study table. (note tt the word "study" is used very loosely in this context)






let's dive in and take a closer look.....




1: a roll of masking tape (no idea how it got there)
2: hair brush
3: clothes
4: accesories
5: very very small mirror
6: more accesories

remember.. it's supposed to be a STUDY table......



and this..... ladies and gentlemen...



is a chair.


1: clothes
2: bag
3: sejadah
4: new curtains which my mum told me to hang up. i told her i'd do it after i clean my room.. which is probably like.... never.

so................................*does the eyebrow thingie*


think u know me yet?


Posted by theblackazure @ 1:23:00 AM
link this post |

Thursday, January 12


Came across an article in the financial times today. The headline read:

Decline in US jobless figures leaves labour centre staff out of work.

Hoho.

Anyhoo, had my first econs tut juz now.. luckily i toOk econs b4. coz basically all the peeps who nvr take econS b4 were losT in space. The tutor is terrible... but he's also terribly cuTe. cuTe as in not cute guy cuTe lah..... Cute as in ''ugly bt adorable" cute.

It's a China guy ah. Yes.. We all know abt the accent which nobody can understand... Slit eyes, bushy eyebrow, sparse hair... I Kept wanting to laugh out loud in class. I cudn help it! he reminded me Of tweety bird. Serious! i must hav looked pretty dumb grinning frm ear to ear.. BaaasKet.

OK. I Know i shudn gossip abt my teacherS & all.. Bt it's not a one way thing! I mean, teachers gossip abt their studenTs ALL the time. And then, there are also some teachers who gossip abt other teachers wif their students! *gasp!* lagi worse sia.

Which probably xplains y the nie canteen is very noisy. Tts wt i notice ah. Like.. In can B, which is my sch canteen, the lines r also blardy long ah.. But its pretty quiet. now, nie is a whole diff thing man.. Its like.. So noisy... This leads me to one conclusion. Teachers like to talk. Maybe tts y they chose teaching as a proffession in the first place. They like hearing the sound of their own voice. tts y when they talk they always ask us to keep quiet..

Aaaaaah.. Make sense rite? (revelation *aura glows*)

Speaking of teachers, today i learnt a new phrase...
Mama-huhu (horsehorse-tigertiger)
it means so so..

So so cute rite?!!




Ps: as i was walking home yesterday, i was reminded of another random/weird fact abt myself. I cant walk straight. As in.. I cant walk in a straight line. i'd kinda veer from left to right. So if im walking beside my friends rite, Id constantly bump into them. I cant help iT.. So i guess tt fulfils the random/weird criTeria..


Posted by theblackazure @ 11:49:00 PM
link this post |

Tuesday, January 10


aaaah. so the lalalaer has tagged me.

Here are the rules:

Post 5 random/weird stuff about urself.
List 5 fellow bloggers whom u want to do the same.
Visit their blogs and tell them they've been tagged and ask them to read the rules in ur blog.

hmmm.. okaiee....

5 random/weird things about myself.

1. my index toe is longer than my big toe.

2. i am paranoid. when i walk out of the toilet, i always feel that ppl are staring at me. so, every minute or so, i'll sort of steal a glance at my crotch to see if my zipper is up. hoho. of coz i do it discretely. there's an art to doing it. and i'll stop doing it only when im 200% sure tt im fully zipped up.

3. i feel very weird smiling for photographs. most of the time its faked. i'd rather pull a funny face or stick my tongue out or sthg.

4. ok. u guys HAVE to know this. i burp very very very very very loudly. seriously loud. like.. a ship blowing its horn kind. PONNNNNNNN... cept mine is BERRRRRRRRRKKKK.. seriously. but strangely enough, i onli do it at home. when i eat outside, the gases involved prefer to escape from elsewhere......

5. i dont eat tempe.

hmmmm.. the lalalaer seems to think i have a lot of weird things.. not true lah. i had a hard time coming out with these 5 things okaieee...

anyhoo, here are the 5 whose life i wanna make miserable.

1. the tai tai --> inez.
2. theweirdo --> tts u, nic.
3. the zubz
4. the jayman
5. the reeza

hah. its like that pay it forward movie.. only pointless.


Posted by theblackazure @ 2:28:00 PM
link this post |

Sunday, January 8


yes.. its still raining.

its been raining since i woke up this morning.. (slept thru subuh.. sheesh..) all the way to right abt now.

but, instead of whining abt how its so cold it is n how my right nostril is blocked and how i can only breathe in through one nostril at the moment, i'll just make u feel worse by saying how wonderful i feel sitting here in my cute pink socks, sweat pants and pyjama top, sipping freshly made hot chocolate, listening to nice songs and breathing thru one nostril. and blogging of coz. aaaaaaah.... life's a beach.

anw, took a cab this morning.

the driver was babbling on and on abt his life.

i felt like saying...... "eh? tak tanye pon?"

geez.

but anyway, he's a malaysian indian ah. so he speaks fluent malay. the conversation (or rather, the monologue) started off with him asking me if tuesday is a public holiday. so i said (unenthusiastically) "yeah. hari raya haji." then he was like.. "good good.. then i can hold on to this taxi until tuesday".

as it turns out, he has been owe-ing rent to the cab company for abt 8 weeks or so. and he plans to let the cab be repossessed and switch back to driving a comfort cab, to which he also owes $1800. according to him, money has been tight since his wife had to have a bypass surgery. since he's malaysian, he had to pay $18 000 cash for the operation. moreover, he himself is undergoing hospital treatments for his chest pains.

i heard his coughing. sounds vey pneumonia-ish.. like.. liquidish like dat.. i tink u know wat i mean.

then he was telling me how he has evaded the "repossessors" by parking his cab somewhere else(somewhere further away from his home). he's planning to go to the comfort cab office to ask for a cab. he said tt he was willing to pay them $1000 cash and the other $800 tt he owes, in instalments. so its sort of a "gali lobang, tutup lobang" thing (dig a hole to cover the other).

then he was telling me that he was going to see this bomoh (witchdoctor) today to make him look good for the interview tmr. he went on and on abt how powderful this bomoh is.. how the things always fall into place.. this lah that lah.. n i was thinking... gee.. shud i giv up on studying n go see this bomoh instead? maybe i can get my first class honours tt way. dean's list summore.

rOite.

it fascinates me how these cabbies are willing to flee from one company to the other as their debts pile up. just last sem i was doing the accountancy module, and we were discussing the amount they should allow for uncollectable debts and wat the companies can do to reduce the amount of such debts. and here this guy is, telling me abt the system loopholes. this, is wat oprah would call A FULL CIRCLE MOMENT. damn.. i love tt woman.

the other day, i was watching her show and she was wearing this pair of Pucci-inspired, retro, brown white n dusty blue pair of Manolo Blahniks. 3 n a half inch spiked heels! j'adore!!

yes, i digress.

ANYHOO,

as i further reflected on wat the cabbie told me, i had an epiphany. i mean, no matter how tight money is for us, we can stil take cab (right lalala?).. we dont hav to worry about whether there's rice at home, whether the car shud be sent for servicing.. whether we'll have enough for the children's education.. heck, i dont even worry abt my phone bill.

it makes me realise how easy life is for me.. how sheltered i am.. how fortunate i am to be born in this part of the world.. and how this is gonna be the best time of my life.

it makes me scared of growing up.

oh well. such is life.


Posted by theblackazure @ 11:59:00 PM
link this post |

Saturday, January 7


i feel empty.

i guess this is how it is when u need sthg so bad and its not there.

they took it away from me..

the one thing i cherish.

the one thing i think about when i arise in the morning.

no. not my faith.

no. not my cats.

no. not thoughts of him. (unfortunately they still linger)

it was.......

MY PHONE!!!!!!

they took away my phone!!!!

OHH! THE HORROR!!

:(

saded lah. i had to surrender my phone to the O2 service center.... not onli dat, i wasnt fore-warned tt all my stuff were gonna be deleted... not onli dat, its in bugis n i hav to go back either tmr night or on monday to collect it. not onli dat, prior to going to the service center i actuali went to the hello!orchard shop and spent abt an hour there just sitting down watching the helpless girl try to configure my phone.

all this to activate my MMS.

*slaps forehead*

aiya. all this COURTS' fault lah. never install the software.

n*b*h.

waste my time u know............. seriously......... omg...........

I WAN TO COMPLAIN.

shud tt be hw i start my letter?

haha. rOite.

but y did i suddenly want to activate my mms?

only smarties have the answer.....

=]


Posted by theblackazure @ 11:18:00 PM
link this post |

Thursday, January 5


stop laughing lah. i happen to like this song okaiee... especially the "con te con te" part.

i had biz law lecture just now. the lecturer kept repeating the word penal.

Penal.

PeNal.

pENAL.

i felt like giggling.. kept thinking of the word in the biological sense.. (if u catch my drift)

penal.

*giggles*

i cant believe i have to tell ppl tt im 20 years old. *shakes head*

anw, do u know why cats cant seem to even get thru PSLE?

no?

here's why.



i hope i dont rear such manja/kaypoh/lazy offsprings.

i hope i'll be a gd mother.





omg. im 20.


Posted by theblackazure @ 12:33:00 AM
link this post |

Wednesday, January 4


Dear MR (insert name of prefered rich guy here),

so here's the deal. im broke. and im pretty much love-less too. and im also pretty convinced tt im gonna be alone for a long time to come. and also im pretty unpretty.

so wat has all this gt to do with u?

well, i recently read the Time magazine (dec 26) issue, where Bill & Melinda Gates as well as Bono were hailed as Persons of The Year. "Why?" u ask. For being "good samaritans", meaning, they gave a part of their.. ehem.. fortune to help the poor, despaired and needy.

bearing that in mind, i have a proposition for u.

the suggestion is this- i would like you to sponsor me throughout my entire life (be it short or long).. financially. this would include my education expenses, clothes, bags, shoes, movies, dates, concert tickets, clothes, shoes and more bags.. my driving license, including class 2b and 2a as well as class 3. cat vetenarian(dunno how to spell) fees, all my parents future medical bills, my brother's future wedding costs, a lifetime supply of travel packages for the family as well as a house on a small, sunny island off the coast of ceylon.

in exchange for that, i will marry u. (altho u have to be willing to convert first).

other options include taking me as a step daughter. (ala richard branson)

so whats in it for u?

well... first and foremost, my company(ppl seem to like that for some ODD reason). secondly, the title of "good samaritan", "good guy" or if u're lucky, "BILLIONAIRE PHILANTHROPHIST". i betcha THAT wud look good on ur resume for future marriages if any (max 4, inclusive of moi). i will actuali volunteer myself to do interviews and highlight the plight of poor singapore children.. especially those without i-Pods and broadband access. i do warn u tt the images might be disturbing... the horror the horror!!!! with that, u might land the cover of Time and i, on the other hand, might just land a cover of Vogue.

thirdly, exoticism. tts wat i bring to the table. think nicholas cage (who married a jap) or angelina jolie (think baby maddox and wats-that-african-girls-name?). the memoirs of a geisha tout is currently in at the moment.. as seen from the many kimono inspired outfits worn to the various mtv awards. so yeap. let's just say tt u wud be hanging with the "in" crowd. move over paris.

fourth, i bake.

fifth, i dont smoke, drink or gamble. neither do i do drugs. so u can be certain that ur fortune wont be gambled away, or unnecessarily transacted into the tobacco industry. rest assured, ur money will be spent wisely and 10 cents out of every dollar donated would go towards the care of our kidney patients.......... (ok fine.. tt was a lousy attempt at comic relief)

on a final note, i just want to say that i am not a gold digger. i am simply a savvy business woman and in business, benefits and costs are traded. after much deliberation, i have come to the conclusion that money is no object to u.. and STATUS is more important. because, i learnt (from observation), that status is power. and power.. is measured in watts. (just had to do tt)

i really hope that u would consider my offer. i look forward to ur reply.



yours faithfully

Ain niA
XOXO



ps: should u reject my proposal, cud u be so kind as to send me a chinook.. just for old time's sake?
pps: and a cream coloured vespa?
ppps: and an osim i-medic chair for my dad?


Posted by theblackazure @ 2:23:00 AM
link this post |

Monday, January 2


and so it is......

my first post for 2006. ooooh.

new skin. ur thoughts?

not havin a particularly wonderful day.. yea. the (not-so-sudden) realisation tt infatuation is, was and never will be reciprocated. ouch.

talk abt starting the new year with a bang...

i saw shah after quite a loooong ass time yesterday.

we talked til the sun dont shine (literally).

starting school..... tmr!!!

dang....

u know how ppl say "i have a lot on my mind?"

well, to be quite honest, i only have one big, gargantuan thing on my mind.. and its taking up a LOT of space. i need to let it all go before the new semester. need to buck up if i want to even have a whiff of that coveted first class honours thingie.

yup.. i need to let go.





humans shud not be allowed to send mixed signals.


Posted by theblackazure @ 1:51:00 AM
link this post |