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Thursday, April 29


http://www.naucon.net/misc/tests/love_test01.htm

1. You are attracted to those who are warm and obedience.

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you
feel irresistable is patience, never give up on you.

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is stylish.

4. You don't like it when your partner is emotional and/or too
moody; and you don't know how to please him/her.

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your
partner is one that you care not only about the present but
also the future with your partner, a long-lasting relationship
that you can grow with.

6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything
wrong after marriage.

7. You think of marriage as a precious thing. Once you get married,
you'll treasure it and your partner very much.

8. At this moment, you think of love as a committment for both parties.

i agree with all.. except 3. I 'd give him e impression tt im like his guy buddy.. N i'd like to add that i wont do anything wrong even before marriage.. im having a bad day.. coz e emptiness is gnawing me from the inside.. hollow.. becomin the tin man.... as usual, e person i like likes sumone else.. bleah.. wats new in this effed up world of mine.. anyways, this is wat i've been tryin to say when i mentioned me thinking bt being single all e time.. im jus effed up lah.. nite.


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Monday, April 26


ok! i change my mind! i wanna blog. y???!!!! y do guys tink girls are falling for them just because she asks him out.. wtf................. i mean.. cmon lah.. its cliche but fer goodness sake WE ARE IN THE 21ST CENTURY!!!!!! social norms tt mattered in the past have been rendered obsolete.. nowadays, girls too, can ask guys out fer the heck of it!!!! uuuurgghhh!!!!! dun be so egoistic can? i can ask all my guy frens out if i want to... coz its MY CHOICE!! yes, maybe one of the guys i ask out is the guy i like... but.... but.... it doesnt matter... haha.. sorielah.. jus read sumone's blog.. jus bcoz a girl ask him out he tinks she's falling for him.... PLEASELAH!!!! i pity e girl sia........


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Saturday, April 24


i wanna talk abt being single... haha.. i know i know.. its a bit cliche with all this teenage talk abt me loving him and me not being able to take my mind off her and all.. haha.. as u all know.. or probably should know.. i am single n very very.. well.. single.. haha. Actuali, this thing hasn't bothered me for quite a while until i realized tt i am surrounded by girls who are attached n guys who are either attached or wooing a girl. Wa biangz.. i realize how not "in the game" i am..
i mean.. its like.. i remember thinkin in secondary school tt if i had a steady boyfren, it wud be in jc.. u know.. cuz then we'll be able to like study together n all dat.. n i remember one of my teachers telling me tt if u wanna hav bf, find one in jc.. coz by the time u get to uni, all the good guys wud be snapped up. Now.. that scares the SHIT out of me.. it's like.. it's alreadi approaching the end of my JC life n im still SINGLE.. >>OMG<< wat if i go uni and all the good guys are reali all alredi snapped up... (-_-") then i'll have 3 choices. 1) salvage one of the "toxic wastes", 2) go out with a guy whose not fm uni [i seriously dun mind.. in fact i prefer it tt way but my parents dun think i shud do tt..] or 3) be an old maid. wahaha.. pathethic sia..
i dunnolah but suddeny everything around me just amplifies the fact tt im single..
for example, i was wearing a ring ah to school today coz i just bought it n i tot it was reali nice n then my friends were like.. oooh.. who bought it for u.. u got bf meh.. y u buy urself a ring wan... Y? cannot is it? then aftertt i was eating in e canteen with my classmates ah n i jus happened to notice tt most of the girls in class are attached ah. If u tink it doesn get worse, u're wrong.. i went home n was trying to chill out.. so i picked up a copy of "manja", a malay mag tt my mum always buys n guess wat? this month's edition featured the 10 hottest singles in e mly scene... i was like... walao... final straw sia..
haha.. but alas.. there was consolation... for inside the mag, in a very small corner on one of the pages, they gave 7 ways of handling the thot of being single.
1) remember that its better to be single than be with someone who is not loved or does not love. Never believe in the BTN (Better than nothing concept). Its better to be patient n await ur "soulmate" rather than be tra pped with a "cellmate".
2) who says getting attached is tough? getting attached is easy, However, being attached might not be so. Same ol' face over n over again 24/7?
3) maybe its true wat ppl say abt love being a wonderful gift n all.. but if so, why do break-ups exist?
4) Life's not like a fairy tale.. things don't always end with "and they live happily ever after".
5) Being single does not mean tt ur not living a wholesome life.
6) cmon man.. there are many fishes in the pond...
7) if u're single n ur bored, e problem probably lies in U n not e fact tt ur single.
There, haha.. translated mly to english.. tho i added some of my own stuff in.. heehee.. anyways, i was chattin to Layz abt this ting on e bus( i told u, its been haunting me the whole day..), n then she was like.. "Y ah? do u tink we're being too choosy? too perfectionistic? Or are we too comfortable with being single?"
U know wat layz... i tink its e latter.. we are only human n certainly not devoid of the tendency of staying in our comfort zones.. i mean.. when i tink abt it.. being single isnt tt bad afterall... i mean.. even god is single...


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Wednesday, April 21


omg.... i tot failing bio is bad... but guess wat? it gets worse... I'M IN MRS KHOO'S BIO CLASS!!!! AAAAAAAH!!!!! omg.. im going to fail even more..... omg...... omg.... omg.... haha.. DIE ah!!! haha.. but dun worie.. i'll get thru it.. hee..
anw, my gp class has its very own blog.. actuali all of my gp teachers'(ms vignesh) classes hav one ah.. this week's topic is euthanasia. heavy. we watched a documentary on it lah as a class that day.. nearly cudn tahan.. its very sad lor.. to see all these terminally ill ppl.. suffering... n wanting to die.. n faced with tt one choice. i tink much of it is a question of ethics.. n religion... n its like.. i dunno but who are we to judge whether a person who is suffering shud or shud not take their lives. Afterall, we're not the ones hanging on to life, gasping for each breath.. day in.. day out... Of course as a muslim, i haf to see it in that perspective as well.. Afterall, Euthanasia is just flowery language for suicide.. or is it?


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Sunday, April 18


life is a parody in itself. actuali.. on second thought... im not sure if its life... well.. let me re-work that earlier claim. Society is about a dozen shades of parody. i dunno abt u.. but wat triggered me off for such a like dramatic deduction is the word "lame". I mean.. to think of it.. the word lame has like evolved in its meaning from like.. like.. paralysed to like.. u know.. weak humour.. the same can be said about the word "kental".. in the context of the malay language. For the benefit of my non-malay speaking frens, "kental" actuali(by actualli i mean as in the dictionary) means firm. But the funny ting is.. malay youngsters hav now managed to morph the word into a slang which carries the meaning sthg like geeky like dat lah... actuali its more like uncool.. So its like if someone tucks in their shirt n pulls it out only like 5 cm, they are kental. if someone cant walk in the rain without getting sick, they are kental. if someone has their nose buried in their books 24/7 (or even 10/7), they are kental. Im sure u guys have ur eyes n ears opened wide enuf to know who n wat 'mats n minahs' are.. now here are the unfortunately so-called trend-setters in the mly youth community. First, there was the skinny, almost not there eyebrow cult. that, of course came together with big hoop earrings and pedal pushers. then, it was the missy elliot look. Complete with those plastic funky earrings n the utterly poseurish bandanas n trucker caps. N of course minahs never go anywhere without their trusty 'Esprit' tote bag n lipgloss. OH.. n did i forget to tell u tt my oh-so-dearie mother bought me one n told me dat.. "but everibodi's wearing one"...... (-_-")........ point proven.

Now if u thot that was bad, let's talk about MAT dressing(oh, btw, its mat as in mart without the 'r', not mat as in rug). mats.... oh man.... wat can i say abt them... well.. a lot actuali.... For one.. they're the most faithful bunch i know... but unfortunately, not in the religious context. mats have like a great following here in Singapore. lets just put it like this. If u're a malay guy in Singapore, u're either a pro-mat(aka a mat) or a mat-hater(aka e antimats). Mats.... sigh... mats hav a sense of dressing so horrible that even simon cowell cannot find the words to explain.. "abysmal" wud be too kind... "Absolutely ghastly" a little to mild.. well.. its more like...... couture fashion gone astray... i mean.. combine tapered jeans, a supposedly "old skool" top and white sandals.. and oh ya.. some weak hairstyle with dreadful blond highlights.. n wat do u get? A WALKING, TALKING AND ABSOLUTELY HUMILIATING FASHION DISASTER. well.. its not just the dressing lah.... tt wud be wayyyy too superficial... its their mannerisms as well... walao.. these mats ah... indescribable sia.. gtg for now.. my pc's gone mad. Down with spam!!!! Damn the pop-up ads!!


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Thursday, April 8


i failed bio.


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Friday, April 2


ouch.... man... i'm like aching all over... i had like a gruelling week sia... i had like pe on tuesday n dance on wednesday n pe on thursday n dance just now.. n napha tmr and dance on sunday.... omg... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz............... haha
actuali i got a lot to write ah... but im so lazy sia... so tired..... im home alone now... yeap.. typical weekend.. me on e pc... but with a twist... i have famous amos in my hands n guess who's e happy girl.. haha.. my back hurts.. rheumatism.. pe je reeza.. anyways, for those who dunno, reeza is my buddiebuddie.. we're practicali like seperated conjoined twins ah.. haha.. shall tell u more abt her n me in future..
anyways, ive discovered(ok ok lagging) dat newsweek is quite a gd read. prior to this i had like pre-made judgements on it u noe.. based mainly on hearsay lah.. but then i found it quite cool n the arguments presented was rather balanced. there's one columnist that particularly struck me.. his name is fareed zakaria.. damn.. he's gd sia.. then e latest edition has one article abt the new movie starring jim carrey and kate winslet.. err.. cant remember the title.. i tink its sumthin like eternal sunshine on an empty mind or sumthin like dat lah..
aiya... tired lah... anyways, dat day rite.. the one after common test, i was so bored n i like did so many quizzes.. n i found some things out bout myself.. quite cool..

HASH(0x8aecbd0)
i am paranoid.. wat a surprise..


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